Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Topic about friend
This topic just come to my mind. F.R.I.E.N.D.S.. I do have lots of friends. Good friend, bad friend , best friend. All i mix. Tak kira ape bangsa atau negara. Ceh~ lol. But one friend je not in my list. CHAUCIB*I friend. Backstabber lor. Dangerous species to mix with. Jealousy kills too huh. Better to be known as sinner than to be a hypocrite. I can be nice, but then i can be 'busok' as the friend that betrays. Some people just hate hypocrite, but then, they themselves in the same categories.. how ehk? bleargh -_- Seriously, i should rant this out. I've never betrayed friends that i love. Their probs, personal, secrets all are kept safe w me. I dun even talk it out w others, because i know that r their personal n they are my friend. Senang ckp dgr jelah, the rest kau pe pasal. I just listen. And i don't have the right to interfere. But sadly some just couldn't do that for me. Talk behind my back. Stab me from behind. Make peple hate me. Woah~ Shall i call them friend? The feeling sucks tau. Da kene baru tau sdiri eh..eh eh eh? Haha.. These friend are those pathetic ones. Pathetic hypocrites. thought you were true to your word you preached everydayand i just find out you've been such a two face. Being a hypocrite tell us to act like adults when you're acting like the little girl. You're the one at fault
go ahead take your anger out on me get your attention so they'll see the hypocrite you really are. To say this isn't hard you're far from perfect. You're just so sad
i'm happy we're not friends, and i'm not mad. The biggest enemy i ever had. As simple as this. Not happy Talk to me straight on my pretty face.*Prasan jek* I will listen and try to change my habits or do whatever best i can do. But if you don't, HUAHUA.... i can swear that u'll get karma one day dgn kwn sdiri or sape2 u love. Wabak Wabak. Amin. To friends that are still w me n love me.. I love u all so much. Even thought i cant spend time w u guys, i still love n treasure our friendship. I can still do my best for u guys. Love love~
Monday, September 27, 2010
Rant it out tuesday~
wooo~ itS a beautiful TueSday. without Boss around at work, its really great.LOL..Alhamdullilah everithing ok now. Its true when org2 tua ckp marriage life isn't easy huh. Things will be different when u're married. Byk nk kene bertolak ansur. Cos now, i have two families. =) Nk kene ambil hati orang tua and ..especially suami.. ERK..-_- Jadi wife nk kene jaga mkn minom suami, nk kene bersihkan bilik ..blablabla.. byk la sae nk kene jaga. Tp tkpe, da lumrah hidop berumah tangga kan. Different people, different probs, i shud say.Bedek klw tkde prob.Mesti ade punyee.. Tp wadever it is syurga adelah di bwh tapak kaki suami. Haiz Asl tk bwh tapak kaki istri ehk? kan bagus.........lolx hatiku gatal sgt2, bila gado, benci. Mcm2 yg bukan2 dlm pikiran. Bila part ok..syg sgt2..wth .. apape SABAR je ler.. bak kata pepatah, sabar adalah separuh dlm imannnnn~~......... waduh~ ni blom ade anak lagy ni.. dade anak, lagy laen problem...Life is full of obstacle. Patience is the word. Tkle sabar blh g terjun k..hehehehek.. Astopojim!I Just keep this in mind, there's no perfect WIFE and no perfect Husband in this world. Everyone make mistakes.Just learn and learn n learn. Thats the best thing i guess. =) BEdek klw suami istri tk gado kan.Klw da tkle tahan sgt, aku pasang je yg baru.ERK..bukan pasang ape.Pasang telinga bedek yg tebal2 punye, laki membebel sumbat tu dlm teinga buat pekak.LOL.. If u want a good marriage, It would be between a blind wife and a deaf husband. Aman damaiii..hehe NO TALK NO TROUBLE.. hihihi. All that a husband or wife really wants is to be pitied a little, praised a little, and appreciated a little. Baru OK! =) FAIR AND SQUARE. SUAMI MAUU... ISTRI PON MAUUU.. sama2 mau happy.. Now im OK.. weehuu..
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Back with my blogs.. m not feeling good this past 2 days. I'm down. Totally breakdown. No mood to do anything and I'm hating this feeling so much. I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone or do anything. I just kept thing to myself like i did before. It hurts so much ok. I want to be happy free with pressure an stress. I just want someone to make me happy. Talk to me. When I do something great,no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears.Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough i can just play pretend.When my daddy was the only boy i ever kissed.When Disney World was the best place to be.And every time you were sad or you had a bad day.You could just run to granny and it would all be okay.I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.When everyone always lives happily ever after.When I cry at night,the only thing I can think to myself is,how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong?And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay? Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle.Sometimes I feel like it's too much.I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years.But for now, just for now, it hurts. I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now,so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward,you know, like I don't belong in my own skin,I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it,I just hate this. And to people out there, have you ever lived my life,have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me~!!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Raya 2010
yeeehaa!! Its the 5th raya today! Spending the raya with dearest husband and my dearest family.. Went visiting on the first day. Urgh~!! im gaining weight man! Ate a lot for this past few days. -_- Everi rumah aku makan.. hee3... Looking forward to visit friends and relatives next week.. weeehuuu~
Friday, September 3, 2010
New things and my wishlists
1) Currently hubby and i got a new pet. Our mata burung putih! We named it birdie.LOL.2) Next, i hope i can pass my BTT that is coming soon next month.. amin.
3) Hope to have epulmira junior soon ..insyallah. We gotta get something and accomplish something first. Then can have baby.. hehe insyallah. (Gotta plan it properly)
4) New house !! still waiting!!
All this will come soon! except for no 1, our pet. hee~ Ya allah berkatilah aku, suamiku dan keluargaku. Amin Ya robbal Alamin~
Thursday, September 2, 2010
The notebook
Watched 'The notebook' for many times. Love the story very much. It was damn sweet and I'm bursting out of tears. OMG i can really feel the love. I felt just like my childhood days w my dearest husband perhaps when i was still schooling. We started as friend, a listener to each other problems and day by day love sparks. We joked, we 'quarreled , irritate each other and even cried together. There's always ups and down in relationship of course. I am glad we are together. In your eyes i am the only girl in the world, Who soothes your heart and makes you twirl. I am glad i met you, you turned my life around,you pick me up when I'm feeling down.
I wish our love till eternity, because you are not only my lover but always my childhood sweetheart! I love u dearest husband~ My one and only heart
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Weekend outside fun, at work damn bored liao! boredom kills!!
Argh~!!!! im bored to death at work.. damn sianz liao.. Cant wait to go home and have a lil feast w dearest family.. Hubby treat.WEEEE~~ Im on holiday mode now.. waiting for Hari Raya to come.. 7 more days BEBE! wuhoo.. This will be my 1st time celebrating w dearest hubby as a married couple.. yay! alhamdullilah.. Our kebaya colour for this year is SEXY RED.. uh-huh.. cant wait cant wait. Niwae, for the past few days, i enjoyed myself.. Ive got shoots with lovey cuzzie yati n diana w kak diana bestie too.. presenting the fairy~~ tadaaa!!